Haaa. Good to be back. It has been soo long since I posted anything. Busy days. I wouldn’t say busy, exactly, but kind of. I have lots and lots to do at work.I want to learn things and to be good at work. The past couple of months has been an exact opposite of good (at work). I always feel like I do a piece of work in the dumbest way possible. The exams are coming too. So I have to get ready for that. But I couldn’t sit down and get my brain ready for studying sort of thing because it is Summer here.
Tiring, scorching, sweaty, irritating, prickly heat inducing summer. Even sleeping feels like a lot of work, let alone studying. My neurons have become slow. No, I am not 70. It has been only a decade since I left the school ;)( ok and a half). The problem is I want to study, I want to be knowledgeable, but couldn’t. It takes some effort to get back to that study mode. Whatever I do except studying make me feel guilty. So I tried this technique of rewarding myself with something I like if I accomplish a small study task.
Big mistake! Be careful in choosing your reward. It can be a piece of chocolate or a small walk or talk with friends or listen to a favourite song but not a novel especially if you are the one who couldn’t resist the urge to keep reading. I completed the task for the day, and I happily sat down with “Fangirl” book. I shouldn’t have done that. I forgot everything and closed the book only after completing it. But that’s ok. A lesson learned and a different reward next time.
Let’s take a moment to talk about “Fangirl” by Rainbow Rowell. I liked and am still hung over Fangirl. It was like a good cupcake. I was tempted to write a Fangirl Fanfic. There are so many reviews all over the internet, so I am not going to do one.
I know this is YA genre. I am young and an adult 😉 So I can read this. I still read and watch Harry Potter and I love it like I used to some ten years ago. I usually feel uncomfortable to say aloud that I like children and YA books. I am 200 percent neither of them. I kept questioning my taste and felt not so good that I am mentally still in school (or should I be happy that I am mentally still young). I am not a picky reader, and I don’t know how to critique a book. There are only a few books that I honestly didn’t like among all the hundreds and hundreds that I have read. When I read reviews of people critiquing on my favourite book, I would be like, That’s not that bad. Is my taste that bad? But then who cares. If that is what you like you have to proud of it. The concept of a good book or bad book doesn’t exist. It is what you like and what you don’t.
We constantly worry about others judging us. But the truth is no one has time for that or if they do have time then they don’t have anything important to do and that is not our problem. It’s theirs. To be honest the only one who judges us is we. We are the first one to criticise all our actions and like and everything.
Now, if I complete this exam successfully, I have planned to order some of the books that have been on my “shopping cart” for quite a long time.